I can't be the one too choose

I would want my whole memory back first
but as I remember it
it was a little hard to hear
and I was slowly failing
while no one really knows why

I was the last to hear those soft words
as I spoke with hope
no one but you will become real

I remember him softly now
He saved me from all the insanity
He told me love you don't have to do this
but we agreed that we could teach him a lesson

Now he just really wants me back
Cain just leave me alone
I know it is a little puzzling
but I prefer a little closer cousin